this brings such a sense of loss...i am here today without you and i am fine...i am doing well actually and life is unfolding wonderfully.....most of the time this past doesn't occupy a moment in my thinking.......but today, for some reason i am feeling the loss....
i know that my reluctance to move on romantically is rooted in the unwillingness to accept that we will never return to that place....how childish of me....it makes me doubt my evident spiritual progress.....she dies hard....that part of me that clings to the memory of you....it's as if the realm of logic and practicality do not exist in her thinking.....love lives in a different kind of world.....
the loss of what is not possible....why is that so painful? there must be a deep part of us that attach in love.....so deep that we are unable to see the visible and accept the inevitable....what is it all really about?......it baffles me....
i have surrendered to allowing the emotions pass through me.....no judgement....not even a second thought.....resisting the temptation to hold on to the fleeting memories and wallow in the loss.......it will pass.....like all else in life
