photo

mostly i am firmly grounded where i stand
here in the present
looking ahead into the open field
not conscious of whats behind me
of all i have passed through
of all that has passed through me
photographs
still capsules of time
frozen life
remind me of chapters lost
gone forever
never to return
bittersweet
snapshots of moments on this ever moving journey
as the river of time carries us along
bringing some but not all along with us
acceptance is my only sanity
attachment tainted with the inevitability of loss
cries out from the images
a time once full of hope
lost now
out of death springs new life
but the scar of what once was will always remain
awoken by the photos

settling

i never wanted a mundane existence
to be a common man among men was out of the question
i wanted greatness, stardom
some extraordinary persona known to the world
superhuman
i can't say that has left me absolutely
but
i can say that i have come to appreciate simplicity
i find myself now wanting to settle
into a life i once feared i would fall into
give us this day our daily bread
honest work, good food, loving community
these are the things i long for most now
i want to live fully
i would not trade the riches i have found in the cracks
for any degree of worldly success
i have come to believe that all great work
stems from this place of appreciation
connectedness to the flow of life itself
it is simple
why do we desire so strongly to reach outside ourselves
for what is already available to us
it's scary to settle into this human existence
admit mortality
receive the key to infinite abundance
i will not resist the river of life
relax into it as it carries me through
and finally back out into the sea of eternity