transition

it is the eve before the new year....a day for letting go of the old....cleansing of the spirit....for me anyway, i have decided to make this day a ritual almost for clearing away and making room for new life...creativity, growth, love, abundance......it is a field of open possibilities. i am excited to be standing where i am today....looking ahead in to this open space full of potential...i know that i will grow and progress into this year...continuing to build upon the foundation i have been laying for the past couple of years....all is in place...there isn't one thing i would hope to change or wish for more of any ting...today i am full....i am right where i need to be...i can feel that....it's amazing.

i have experienced tremendous growth.....profound transformation. i am confident with all of my being that i am progressing...that my life will continue to expand.....my dreams shall manifest.....i have found a new pace....a steady patient understanding and accepting of progress....time, growth.....one step at a time.....one foot in front of the other. one of the hardest anxieties to let go of has been the "i can make this happen NOW" one....."i am grand enough to have that power".... who would have thought that only through humility and surrender can greatness be achieved.....and then it becomes serving god and not a personal claim.......i have been blessed to have been given these principles to live by......

i must admit that there is not much that i would have changed about this past year....it has been a great year for me on my path.....i am excited to welcome a new year....my soil is ready.....some growth has occurred....the flowers will soon follow....

pax

i feel so affected by this season.....it's complex...the cold weather makes me want to hide inside, create a cozy ambiance and just remain tucked away from the every day....comfort is what a desire....i feel lazy....at the same time i am reminded of all the actions one must take to ensure comfort.....life does go on...and that could be intimating at times....i want to resist the pull of reality.....i want to stay in the womb......catering to my senses....relaxing....the smell of pine...the glow of a candle....a tired body on a cozy couch wrapped in a favorite blanket intertwined with another warm body.....just breathing....realaxing slowly into bliss...utter submersion.....

i hope to differentiate between indulging in comfort and being lazy...sometimes the line gets blurred....if i stay too long it becomes the other......

tonight i want to enjoy.....enjoy my home....enjoy the company of my son.....enjoy the yummy soup i've made.....i want to just be and allow the night to unfold with no expectations or stress....just float....no engaging in thoughts of tomorrow...the tasks that call me...that wait for me....not tonight....tonight i choose bliss....