mother

So far from your warm cocoon
I find myself still searching for a way back
You are not the same to me anymore
Humanness has penetrated my blindness
Denial has served as protection
from the stark reality of harsh judgments and selfish expectations
What is a mother?
I find them now in the world
Some far better for me than even the one from whence I came
How can it be
that time has created a rift between us
A rift that caused me to see
To feel separated
Abandoned
I floated along for a while
before I found another
She was nurturing and protective
She lifted me up from the cold floor
on which I laid for years
stricken with heartache
haunted by secret beliefs of unworthiness
She picked me up in her arms
Her voice like a blanket she whispered
you're safe now, I've got you
I lifted my defeated head to see
she was me