just for tonight

i come here to confide my deepest feelings...an action required to cleanse myself of emotion....share what i feel
it had never dawned on me until tonight how there is a degree of loneliness in coming here to write....this conversation i would like to have with a lover....receive comfort and understanding.
instead i put it all here...into the world i send my cry....as i sit alone in my home, my only contact this keyboard.
sometimes it is just right...just what i need and frankly all i desire.
tonight it seems lacking....
i've had such an emotion filled day...lots of attention and love....i took it all in....absorbed the good feelings and celebrated myself....
as the evening came to a close i began to feel lonely.... as much love as there was around me....i had no one to settle into, to talk to you and seek comfort in.....there were things i was feeling that i wanted to tell someone....i wanted to fall into another and reveal my brokenness...my disappointments about the day...my insecurities....but there was no one...
so i came here....
it's sad...i am sad....
this computer can't hold me...
it can only take what i give but cannot return what i need....
i want to be loved...i want to be heard and listened to and cared about....i want to be comforted....
i want to have this honesty, this intimacy with another human being....
i never thought i would need another...i never wanted to admit this weakness....or perceived weakness....
i love myself and i will wake in the morning and continue walking forward....
this will pass and my independence will empower me once again....
but for tonight i am feeling lonely....tonight it would be nice to cuddle.....