cuore aperto

so the "crazy brain" has subsided....i am left with a clearing....a space within...motionless....out of this space cries the yearning for love....like a portal into the deepest part of my being.....a vacuum that longs to be filled with love....i can feel it call on every level....spiritual, emotional, physical.....

there is peace in loneliness.....a calm, still power.....i am raw, revealed, exposed.....sensually human...

my heart is full of love....love to share....there be the yearning....i want to give and receive....to move it, speak it, feel it.

i have, for a while now, believed wholeheartedly that the love for self was the only one needed...i have achieved that absolute love of self....i am content...i am at peace....i accept....i have surrendered....and now i find that i yearn to share myself...not out of dependency or attachment but out of love...out of life.

my heart is open.....

i find that there is a trace of embedded fear of finding love and loosing it ....it is because of this very fear that love flees....it cannot be frozen or held captive...it is alive and must be allowed to breathe, change, live....there be no need for attachment.....one can never truly posses it anyway.....that's the hard part....how to allow the experience without forming an attachment and setting ones self up for heartache.....move past the fear....live with an open heart...trust that love is an extension of divinity and is part of god's will for us......

i am here and my heart is open....