this too shall pass

I am astonished by the emotional cycles within...sometimes the train just goes through the muck and all the deep rooted feelings of loneliness, emptiness, sadness, loss & longing are stirred up.....with this the feeling of isolation and disconnect...hopelessness....so easy to identify with and attach to...perpetuate.
It is during periods like this that it is so important for me to stay aware that I am on that train going through these emotions...I am not really the emotions...they are not a true indication of who and what I am...unless of course i become so entangled with them that in fact they become an identity. My task is to stay present....hold tight to the awareness that this shall pass...stay on that train as it goes through the muck.....don't get off and wander around. God that's so difficult sometimes...I don't want to have to experience these feelings....I just want to be at peace....at times all I can do is breath through it....the inner storm that comes.....distorting my perception of the outside world...seemingly everything is in disorder...chaos...not enough...needing fixing....like all the pieces of my life just fall apart and fly around my mind at high velocity eluding my grasp...making tremendous noise....and leaving me in a state of heightened irritability and sensitivity to all around me. I feel as if I am clenching to sanity.....