father

i can see you so clearly as you are.....where you're headed...en caged in your cocoon of delusion....illusion you cling to....desperate for some sense of self worth....seeking all security outside of yourself.....the bottle, the pack, the shoes, the jacket, the bike, the title, the glory, the martyrdom, the reputation, the persona......who are you really? ....what do you run from?.....

don't you think at some point the emptiness will begin to erode you from the inside?..... you'll find the years have passed through your hands like sand......that you have remained frozen in that one block of time.....repeating the day......living dead.....

those that love you watch helplessly.....yearning to reach you on your island of despair and self seeking fear.....their hearts break....mourning the loss of you..... all the while you are before their very eyes.....

your son's heart aches for your contact...and he waits on the outskirts of your self involved life watching the days go by.....never truly getting what he longs for most.....

wake the fuck up.....these days will never return....they are but once in this life's experience.....step away from your self interest and see that you are needed in the life of another.....fundamental, instrumental.....you have the ability to make or mend the hole....you have the power to give this gift of love......make your choice

i don't want to watch you get carried away by this current.....i pray he doesn't have to........