wake up

my god, so consumed by distraction and material gain.....your clothes don't make your character baby....it seems as though you've lost sight of what's important in life....or have you ever really known?
the lack of emotional awareness for the children.....the chaos....the foul mouthed disregard for innocence.....what example do you lead with?
the inability to remain at peace within yourself...loosing your shit at the drop of a dime.....spilling over your toxic dissatisfaction with your own life unto the kids.....man get your shit together...it's not there fault you don't know who you are....that you chase some delusion you think might bring you fulfillment only to be left empty and wanting once again....
what kind of life are you building...of what use to mankind are you?
maybe i'm the oddball to feel that my life should be productive...that i should be making a contribution to this world.....
as i witness, most of those around me are content with going through their self centered days....being fed what to wear....what to say...who to be.....then maybe just maybe you'll be in the game....the game that leads to? what do you win if you give your life to play? what is at stake?....fundamental questions if you ask me....
it's difficult to be around you.....you make my world spin out of control....speed increases as anxiety swirls round.....your lack of grounding and your inner turmoil can be felt...it's disturbing....
why do you fall victim to the deceptions of this world....why can't you see that you are walking further and further into entanglement......further and further away from yourself...you are giving your life away for illusions that will never make you feel whole or worthy or confident or lovable or sane or beautiful or competent or fulfilled.....
i'm so pissed off that people can be hypnotized by this shit.....
there are some truths that one cannot escape from.....that live under all the layers of shit one might accumulate in their attempts to avoid such an encounter.....the truth that rises when the stillness of death arrives.....the profound truth of one's life.....
live while you're alive.....it's an inside job.....be still and face yourself....