i'm standing here in my kitchen over a sink full of dishes......my son is in the bath enjoying his imaginary world of aquatic adventures....something just dawned on me.....i love being home!
i can't remember i time since about the age of 4 that i loved being home....i feel like for most of my life i have been so unsettled and uncomfortable that i could not sit long enough in my own body to enjoy the comforts of a home....
i ran from the insanity....seeking refuge from the chaos of my family in romance and refuge from the chaos of romance in myself .... i have finally settled.....
it feels wonderful to be where i am right now...i feel safe.....at ease...at peace...
what a tremendous gift i have given myself and extended to my son....i am so grateful
i can think of no greater pleasure for me these days than to relish in the comfort of our home.....warm brownies....maybe a movie or a book.... a conversation or a boisterous game for us to play.....maybe alone time...... some space for ourselves....
whatever the pleasure, we are safe, secure, loved, at peace and free to be who we are......i am finally home.....
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I am so happy for you!! I needed a bit of hopefulness in my day, so thank you!!! Life can be good, and enjoying your home is such a big part of that! Mazel Tov, as we Jews like to say...
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